Find your way out if you feel assed. That is it.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

It makes me wanna die when i have to stay at home and face him.

Seriously.

I'd rather jump down from a 20th storey floor than to live under threats all day. Can you just fuck off and leave me alone?

"Faaaaaahed" @ 5:46 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006

This two weeks are seriously hell, trust me. First, i gotta do the fucking flash assignment and now Comp animation.

Animation is pure torture, seriously. First, you hafta model the characters, scenes, figures, settings, whatever you have. Then you gotta rig them, meaning add 'bones' and 'skin' so that they can move. Just riggin can takes up two days if your 3dmax screws up on you. I think we took a whole week to finalise the modelling and the rest of time was spent on the gay rigging.

One hour is gone. Only 10 seconds of animation has been done.

What makes me feel so screwed is that, i cant do anything when the rest of them are not done with their work. And i can do nothing to help them becos i know nuts about the rigging and adding bones. Just give me the models and i'll make them move, dance, kick, punch people and whatever you want it to do. But adding bones, IK chain, FFD??? Sorry, but wtf is that?

And the worst.. A word of advice: Choose the right people to work with!!!

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I stayed up and study like fuck but i've got a F for my vidp test. I know the majority of us got Ds. But a F!!! Highlighted bright orange in the grades list!!! I stayed up and study like fuck again for my music test but i've got a C+.. Sometimes i felt like i've entered the wrong course, seriously. Why the fuck did i screw up my interview for entering mass comm? I should have taken up Chinese studies in NP, seriously. I'm confident that i won't fail any modules at least.

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Stress-related illness are not curable. I was struck with stomach flu a week ago, just like my sis. Stomach flu seriously sucks becos it's a gay illness.

I shit everyday. Minimum 3 times. Maximum 6.

I puked at least once everyday.

I've gotten fever yesterday, been seeing lines on the screen and woke up with a sore eye today.

I don't look sick at all. I don't even feel sick. I've been doing the same things everyday like it's already become a daily routine.

Can somebody just kill me, or should i just punch myself to death? I think i'm tired of living. Fucking bullcrap.

"Faaaaaahed" @ 1:16 AM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

I'm seriously getting more and more disillusioned. I think people only misses you when they realised that you're still alive.

Tell me, am i just too fucking demanding or what?

Being taken for granted isn't a nice feeling at all. Being easily replaceable isn't. Being disposable isn't.

So much, so pathetic..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. People fail you all the time. I need more strength to be even more independent. Prolly i shouldn't even blogged about this but i thought i need to get it out of my system or i'll feel constipated. Even when i diarrhea like fuck these few days.

They're right. The world sucks. Or my life sucks.

"Faaaaaahed" @ 3:36 AM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Suddenly, i fell in love with 3D max and Animation.

I realise Flash is much more detestable.

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I HATE FLASH.

GRRR.

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Why am i so fucking unlucky today?

First i woke up with an excruciating pain in my tummy, and i know exactly what's going to happen next. So i made my way to the toilet. Then i did my flash assignment. FUCK FLASH IT KEEPS SCREWING UP ON ME.

Then i felt so hungry that i thought i saw my tummy caving in. Wtf, i forgot to eat!!! And my house is empty, unless you consider furniture as food.

I went out to buy food. Went back halfway to get my umbrella. Yea, and the rain stopped when i brought my umbrella down T.T

And when i came back with food, i realised that the STUPID AH NEH CHEATED ME OF $1.50. WHY MY MUSHROOM CHEESE PRATA TURN INTO EGG PRATA????

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Im feeling depressed... T.T

"Faaaaaahed" @ 5:33 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

Oh my god, this is damn cute!

Pandas are like one of my favourite things on earth and my greatest wish in life is to have someone who can breed genetically small pandas and elephants. WHOA. Mini pandas and mini elephants! Just the thought of it makes me feel excited all over. Nyahahaha.

I think i just need some sleep.

"Faaaaaahed" @ 12:36 AM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

WHAT THE FUCK?????

BRAZIL IS BOOTED OUT OF THE GAME.

LIKE. FUCK.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I JUST CANT STOP AHH-ING.

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

"Faaaaaahed" @ 5:10 AM